Whiskey bottles, and brand new cars
Oak tree you're in my way
There's too much coke and too much smoke
Look what's going on inside you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you

Angel of darkness is upon you
Stuck a needle in your arm
So take another toke, have a blow for your nose
One more drink fool, will drown you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you

Now they call you Prince Charming
Can't speak a word when you're full of 'ludes
Say you'll be all right come tomorrow
But tomorrow might not be here for you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you

Hey, you're a fool you
Stick them needles in your arm
I know I been there before

One little problem that confronts you
Got a monkey on your back
Just one more fix, Lord might do the trick
One hell of a price for you to get your kicks
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you

I have just lost one of the most important people in my life to drugs...
I can't help him.
I can't do anything about it but sit and watch because he wont listen.
It's only a matter of time until he hits the bottom and decides if he wants to make it or not.
I tried to help and hold his hand through it just to be pushed away.
And the worst part is being told by his mother that i was the one who did it to him...im the one who drove him crazy because I refused to deal with his bullshit.
listen bitch,
I am sorry i couldnt instill any morals in ur son, im sorry i couldnt make up for what u lacked as a mother.
Hes not my son, not my fucking responsibility. NOT MY FUCKING PROBLEM.

Hello,
Contrary to popular belief/hopes I'm not dead yet! hah! Yes I have a returned with a digital camera and I hope to put up some interestng pics soon. Oh, and a painting thingy...
Tchus

Yes...School is almost out, praise buddah! I fear this weekend will be rather uneventful for me. but who knows...For a while I was beginning to think I was dying of lung cancer or something but it turns out half of the school has the plague so im not alone. yaaay..Today I learned something that I thought would really make me sad but I'm not. I guess I knew it was inevitable and it may work out for the best (in my favor) anyway. AAAnd im finally over Dylan. Woot! >.<


I would die for you
I would die for you
I've been dying just to feel you by my side
To know that you're mine

I will cry for you
I will cry for you
I will wash away your pain with all my tears
And drown your fear

I will pray for you
I will pray for you
I will sell my soul for something pure and true
Someone like you

See your face every place that I walk in
Hear your voice every time I am talking
You will believe in me
And I will never be ignored

I will burn for you
Feel pain for you
I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart
I'll tear it apart

I will lie for you
Beg and steal for you
I will crawl on hands and knees until you see
You're just like me

Violate all my love that I'm missing
Throw away all the pain that I'm living
You will believe in me
And I can never be ignored

I would die for you
I would kill for you
I will steal for you
I'd do time for you
I would wait for you
I'd make room for you
I'd sail ships for you
To be close to you
To be a part of you
'Cause I believe in you
I believe in you
I would die for you.

Yesterday was pretty cool I got to go see my other family >.< and I bummed ciggies off mum. yeeeah. Iana is so fucking huge! But adorable..yeah babies are cute but fragile so they're scary at the same time. Then, I came home and bitched at Jon's ex. Hehe what a cunt. Then Dylan was being a little shit like always. Damn ur hardheaded!! Grr hatred vibes at u!

Fuck you very much

Fuck you very much.
You say you want to be friends, start over, try again?
Well, things will never be the way they were back then.
Things were never how you wanted, I couldn't think of you that way.
Now, if you take one step closer I will take two steps away.
Maybe you need affection,
I'd like to help you but I can't stand when you're around.
Fuck you very much.
Maybe you need to talk, but you betrayed my trust.
Friends was not good enough?
Fuck you very much.
You can always claim you're straight-edge, go ahead and dye your hair.
You won't get more attention from me, cause I will never fucking care.
I try to remain secret, shooting away and hiding out, but you always track me down.
Open your eyes and figure it out.
Maybe you need affection, I'd like to help you but I can't stand when you're around.
Fuck you very much.
Maybe you need to talk, but you betrayed my trust.
Friends was not good enough?
Fuck you very much.
I'm not trying again.
I'm sick of seeing you.
Don't wanna be your friend.
I wish you'd go away.
Fuck you very much.
You say you want to be friends, start over, try again?
Well, things will never be the way they were back then.
Things were never how you wanted, I couldn't think of you that way.
Now, if you take one step closer I will take two steps away.
Maybe you need affection, I'd like to help you but I can't stand when you're around.
Fuck you very much.
Maybe you need to talk, but you betrayed my trust.
Friends was not good enough?
Fuck you very much.
Have a nice day.